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Monday, April 5th, 2004
10:04 pm	An update a month? Sure, why not? That's a much better increment than once every 4 months or whatever. Anyhow, I have been holding down my latest job for about a month now. I will not mention the name of my employer, but it is retail. I have been doing stocking, mostly; we have to deal with customers at the same time though, which can be distracting. But I have been showing up every day on time (see: early), taking more hours and days than I have been scheduled for, and evening staying late when asked. I hope I can hold this job down, I have been trying hard.. As for my living situation, I am just trying to do my part in shit and get my rent paid every month and not do any stupid shit to fuck over my roommates. Not that I ever have or would. I just hope they know that. I am down for them; it seems, though, that sometimes they team up against me on certain things. Which I can see why for a certain reason, but from my perspective I still feel it is unfair. My personal life? Well some people are trying to claim injuries from a car accident over 6-7 months ago, so that is a minor distraction. That shit is bogus though. The total damage to both vehicles was approximately $2,200. Big deal! People were walking around after the accident, and there was a CHP officer there to talk to the both of us. So I hope that will be dismissed soon, ol Triple A don't take no kind of shit, and neither does P$! Peace and Love (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 5th, 2004
11:38 pm	It's been a long time It's a good thing I read my last LJ entries before I wrote this, because it has been a really, really long time since I entered in it. I am drunk and stoned as I type, but whatever. It will just take long, what with all the typo deletions! Hehe Anyhow, I am still living in the same pad that I mentioned in my last entry. And how interesting is it that I stopped entering in LJ since I moved in here. Because every day since has just been an unfathomable learning experience. Everything I wrote about before seems irrelevent. I stopped using drugs you snort, so I have been way better mentally; except most of the things that have happened during the current tenancy of my domicile. Since I have lived here, I experienced "Real Life" in the truest sense. To a sheltered or normally unaware mind, real life can be shocking. And for me, it was and has been pretty damn rough. I haven't entered in this Journal in maybe four months, but I have learned more since than in my entire life span. I need to go see fear and loathing in las vegas at midnight right now. I hope this journal entry turns out good, because I am truly faded. I love everyone P$ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 12th, 2003
10:16 pm	I make this look good! One of my favorite quotes of all time to steal! Hahaha. So it's been hella long since I updated the LJ. But what can I say? I have been spending a lot of time taking a look around me and re-evaluating my current position and goals. I have moved out Marcie, Tatiana and Frankie's as of 10-11-03. I appreciate how Marcie took me in and tolerated me for as long as she did. But now I am in a considerably cheaper place, with more living space and my own bathroom and walk in closet. Much more room for my fleeting material possessions.... My good friend Kjerstun told me a few weeks ago that I needed to "change my persona" and that I was, "too nice." Maybe that is true. Maybe it is not. But I think I have just been too easy to tolerate people. Because you can still hate something even if you tolerate it. More recently though, I have been wondering, "why tolerate these elements for the sake of political correctness?" People are much too sensitive and PC now-a-days. If we all said what was on our mind, sure, things might get nasty, but eventually things would sort themselves out. And so maybe Kjerstun was right, in a sense. I just need to be real, and maybe a little cold. But sometimes you have to do what you have to do and you need to grit your teeth and bear the hard times, because that's what a full life is chock full of. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 25th, 2003
5:09 pm	Talking to myself I gotta stop writing in my Live Journal so much. People are gonna start thinking I am a freak (Comment on this)
5:15 am	More insightful business As I was staring at my refrigerator looking around for a beverage, I noted this lame ass magnet. It has a sailboat in the ocean at sunset,and reads, "The past cannot be changed, but the future is whatever you want it to be." That's bullshit if you ask me. I think it should read something like "The Past cannot be changed, and the future is whatever happens up until you die." Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
4:23 am	Finally :D Acknowledgement and Acceptance So, uh, funny story I just recalled. (It's funny because it happened a few hours ago and I am recalling it like it was months ago ;D). Frank and I were at the Circle K buying a whole range of snack items, and we ended up chatting a bit with the clerk, John. About what, I can't remember. All the homies from 'round my hood know the Circle K clerks are straight up CRAZY dogg! Anyfuck, I say something to him, and then later inform him that what I told him was a blatant lie. He then proceeded to label me as a sociopath on account of me selling that shit to him so fucking hard, what with the straight face, believable delivery, and quirky mannerisms. I think I now realize the reason that I was so pleased with how that went , was because he realized that I fuck with people like that all the time, and I got him. I don't know why but I can generally make people believe anything that comes out of my mouth. I have been in rooms with people and started to heat up brown hash pieces to put them on bowls, and then when they ask me what it is, I say Heroin. They always flip out and look scared as shit, but then I proceed to say something to the effect of, "Nah I am fucking with you it's hash. Haha, you guys are ok." Then I rob them when they are high..... No I don't. But did you believe it for a second!?? Lol :D Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: none (Comment on this)
2:44 am	Fuck dying? Nah fuck living So here I am in my room alone. I am rolling two blunts, cause I feel like being really fucked up. It's one of those normal nights that follows my never normal days. I am sad again. Saturday morning my front tire blew up , so I've been rolling around on a fucking donut tire. Then, Saturday night my $200 sherlock bubbler fell down about 2 inches and broke just that easily :( I don't know why life is so fucking hard and why I go through it in so much pain. I think there is someone watching me fucking up my life at the time when it really should be fucked with the least. Plus my friends Mom wants me to move out cause I smoke too much pot and don't work. Like I said in my previous rant,there is a lot of hate in me. But I still love a lot of things. Like my good friend Kevbo (youroncrack said, "So you hate a lot. But the flowers still smell sweet". Maybe that's not verbatim, but that will work. And I do love life. I love the flowers, the sky, God... not the one that doesn't exist, but the one who watches over me. The one who knows about the shit I can't write about on this website because the feds would read it and lock me up. I don't know what to do, because I am 18 years old and my outlook on life is bleak. My Dad died at 48 and I can't see myself alive 10 years from now. I just miss the love. I miss acceptance. I miss family. I miss humanity, decency, and political correctness. I miss everything that died along with my Father a lifetime ago. Sunday at about 4:30 Brandi came over, followed by Tat (nothingitsfine) and Kristen (miserablebliss) at 5:00am. Well Kristen passes out on my bed, and things are cramped in the house, so I am all down to share. First of all let me note that I was a perfect gentleman and wouldn't dream of it. Second of all I bring that up my point which is that I was so comfortable that night, it was unsettling. I didn't even hear her get up and leave at 10am. I miss having anyone to be close to. I miss having the unconditional love of anyone. Anyone to say to me, "Pat fuck the world, I love you". Current Mood: alone Current Music: Dr. Dre - The Message (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 23rd, 2003
1:38 am	Stone Cold Chillin It's 3:15 in the am, I am chilling in my room with Kevbo watching some golden Futurama episodes. Have I been laggy w/ the updates considering the comp? Eh, that's neither here nor there. I've been chilling alot today, relatively speaking, which is good. I have been going insane lately. Bat shit crazy some might say. Flying off the handle all day and all night. So you wanted a hate fueled rant Jimmy? Like I am your little rant monkey to entertain you and fly off the handle for you? HUH? WELL YOU WEREN'T EVEN THERE IN VEGAS WHEN I WAS DRUNK! I FLEW OFF THE HANDLE IN WAYS YOU'VE NEVER SEEN NOR WILL SOON UNDERSTAND! But I digress :D I am just angry about the government and organized religion and sheep. (metaphorical sheep; people I deem tools or stupid with worthless opinions.) Does that sound harsh? Well sorry but things have to be said. From a philosophical school of speaking, some argue the stupid do not deserve to live. I am not saying that I am from that school or that I subscribe to their newsletter, but I just think that we could shave off at least 500 million people and make new fossil fuel or something! Damn! Also having said all that much, please understand I try to mask my sociopathic leanings and I do not judge people when I meet them because I am not prejudiced..... Ok well I am, but just against people who wrong me. People who trip on me for no reason; I am an incredibly laid back person when not flying off the hande like a lunatic. I go out of my way to be normal and accomodate people, but when I get fucked over I go bat shit crazy. Werd. Current Mood: hot Current Music: Daz-DPGC (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 17th, 2003
1:41 am	Live from my living quarters! Yay so here I am updating my LJ from the convenience of my own room. I am glad the cable modem has been less bitchy. This comp is nice for web browsing, e-mailing, live journal updating, and file downloading and burning. Other than that, I dunno. But anyway, woo hoo! Current Mood: devious (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 16th, 2003
2:13 am	Dogghouse in you mouth Yeeeuh! Feeling a little loopy updating the old LJ. It's like 2:10 according to MY watch. I just sold my 91 Honda Civic Hatchback today. I had it for over 2 years, hehe. I used to make fun of it because it was my stepdads, but then I decided to buy it and throw a system in it. It served me well, but one night my system was stolen and like 35-40 of my most treasured cd's (including Follow the Leader signed by David Silveria) were ganked subsequently. At any rate, what can I say about it, it held up well and got me around, and now I hope it will serve my boo well lol. So I am just chilling, still seeking employment, not currently. But I am sure in a week or two I will be ready for the job market again. With that I conclude my entry. Once I get the cable modem in my room up it's on! Late Current Mood: satisfied Current Music: Some ol Tupac playing in the background at GPleX (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 10th, 2003
11:17 pm	Welcome back. I am sure several people may be wondering if that subject is addressed to the reader or the author. I say it's both, and why not? :D So I have been up to quite a bit since my last post. I went to Defcon 11 which was off the hook. The whole trip involved my '91 Civic HB going apeshit (mostly just the brakes). I hit someone two times to slow the momentum of my car. Then after being towed to Baker, CA, (pop. 650) and finding all mechanics to be closed, I decided that me and my three buddies really needed to get home, so we drove my busted ass car for like 5 hours. But the drama goes on! When we got back into the desert at like 2 and Frank and I were at home, I didn't go to sleep. I forget why and I don't know how. But that Monday I went and got a Mazda Protege. I had a grand old time that day, and every subsequent day with that car has been tight. What else you dare ask? How about me being fired from GamePlex? Yeah that happened. I loved that job, and I was having a good time working there. Despite what Pat Albert and Lynsey Waddill told me, I felt like I was doing a really good job; I got to know customers personally, and I was one of their consistent closers, closing all by myself like 3 days in a row working 8 hour shifts. Sigh oh well. I am having yet another check sent my way, so I'll have money for quite a while to get on my feet. But I figured that while I am not employed, I can work on all kinds of stuff, both business and pleasure. Eh, and personal which I believe falls under an altogether seperate category. Wow, if you read the whole thing you are a champ, and I will no doubt talk to you later. Love, OG_GhettoP$ Current Mood: spu (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
6:53 pm	Vikes and Alki Mmmm so I've decided recently that when I get off work, I need to do some serious unwinding. Recently I discovered that one good way I enjoy doing so is by listening to music after I take some vicodins and drink beefeater gin. That will probably relax you to the point of being terrified. But not because you feel so good (although you do). If you are anything like myself, you will be terrified on account of the horrible visions you will suffer. But I figure today's wednesday, I have the rest of the week off and I am gonna spend it in Las Vegas. Meds and booze? FINE! (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 27th, 2003
5:33 pm	What's been up Ok so wow it's been a while since i updated my journal. I am all laggy! I have been working through my issues at work, getting my chips (money, cabbage, skrilla)and trying to see my family. Although I basically haven't lol. I am just trying to get my life together you know? They'll be around for a while I hope. I am going to Defcon in Vegas, permitting our transportation dilemma gets handled. I only work tuesday next week so I am free to go hog-wild. If for any reason Defcon falls through, then I will roll up to the LBC, where the living is easy and hella cooler than the desert. Alright, well that was pretty good I guess. If I remember anything funny or anything personal I just want to vent on, you can be sure I will update this biznatch sooner. Current Mood: awake Current Music: DDR/Beatmania sngs (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 16th, 2003
8:45 pm	Werd on the strizneets So here I am at work, as per usual. Halfway through my 8 hour.... oh wait, almost. I am feeling unappreciated at my job. My assistant manager took tonight off to play games instead of work with me. I am closing like all 5 nights I work this week. Plus I am gonna work on a computer and laptop tonight for my general manager and bring that in before work tomorrow. I don't know if that's how soon he would expect me to have the job done, but I want to get it done that quickly so they'll realize what an assett I am to this corporation. Not getting paid on Thursday didn't help me feel any better. It's like being in a relationship with someone who doesn't love you as much as you love them. I feel like I try so hard at this job and I end up being forgotten. (Comment on this)
Monday, July 7th, 2003
9:06 pm	Monday Madness Hey hey, it's Monday, July 7, 2003 at about 9:06. Let me bring ya up to speed! Saturday night (Sunday morning) was insane. I had went on a great journey with two good friends of mine. I truly felt alive, although at times I thought death was near. Sunday I was pretty lazy on account of losing my voice and being sick. And here I am Monday night, on Frankie's birthday, at Gameplex working. Word on the streets. Eh, I guess that's all for this entry. Current Mood: cranky (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 4th, 2003
8:36 pm	I won't get to light off my bottlerockets until the fifth!!! What's new in the world o' P? Nothin. Here at work once again. Doing the same old thing. Listening to my tunes. Not a whole lot is happening! ... haha. I keep thinking that I am being watched on PC Anywhere, which I very well may be. lol. Boring posts man! Save me! Current Mood: high Current Music: Swollen Members (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 3rd, 2003
11:44 pm	My Deathday! Voila! Happy Deathday! Your name: sweetpappyjones You will die on: Wednesday, July 19, 2023 You will die of: Exsanguination Username: Created by Quill Hehehe, after looking up the definition for this word, I decided I would edit this entry to let everyone know that I will die by draining of blood on the above date! Whoo hoo! lol :D (Comment on this)
11:38 pm	Swollen Members I am at work right now, it's 11:38. I am listening to Swollen Members, whose new CD Bad Dreams I brought. I also brought Napalm Death and Machine Head, but they didn't go over as well. I did go and get my reciever, but I ended up getting a 7.1 Channel reciever instead, 770 watts :D Once I get off at 1am I am gonna chill with some homies at random spots. I work tomorrow on the 4th of July from 7pm to 3am!!! That's kinda ghetto, I like to celebrate my 4th properly! Ahhh well, I love my job. It's all good! Bye for now! -=+*P*+=- (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 30th, 2003
10:13 am	If I were a dwarf, I'd be sleepy, yo! We are here, at my mom's house. It's about 10:10 am according to this whackness. I am going to go sleep pretty soon, I don't know how I haven't slept yet. I know I am going to do at least one thing today, and that is go get a new reciever from Best Buy! Not just any old reciever either! A super-pimpy audiophile reciever!! Like 6.1 channel, 110x6 watt power? Wheee! I am going to go to sleep right now in order to see that happen sooner! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: none (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 28th, 2003
7:22 pm	Ummm about that pic So yeah, I found a pic of myself from MP3.com from my band's little spot on there. My drummer did some ghetto things to the photo, but it was a really awesome pic. We took a gang of good pictures out in the cove in March. But anyhow, I figured I'd give everyone a lil sumthin sumthin to work with :D Current Mood: sore Current Music: none! (Comment on this)